February 21, 2008

I am back in PGN!!! It is ironic that I pray so long to get back in PGN only to turn around and pray to get out quickly! Yes, now I am praying to get approved and out as quickly as possible. The average time is 8 weeks but of course I ma praying it is faster than that. 

I love you Maya!

February 20, 2008

Not a lot new (or should I say good) to post but I had a minute so I thought I would update everyone on what I do know. As I posted earlier, I was "kickout" of PGN on February 5th and before I could be resubmitted, I had to be registered with the new Central Authority. I don't know the exact date but I was registered with the "newest" Central Authority on February 8th or 9th. I say "newest" Central Authority because I was registered as of February 28th and then the Central Authority moved and EVERYONE had to re-register by February 12th or they could not continue in the adoption process. So I am registered but apparently PGN wants a copy of a particular document that is located more than 16 hours away from Guatemala City in a place that has no copy machine (very rural area). The crazy thing is they already have the info they need so I don't know what this is about. My attorney has a meeting scheduled to talk to the director of PGN today to see if they can get something done about me being resubmitted to PGN. It is so hard to have NO control over any this. I trust my attorney so all I can do at this point is PRAY and beleive me, I do that a lot! I don't know if I will hear anything today or if it will be tomorrow but please pray this meeting goes well and I can get back in PGN so I can eventually get OUT of PGN. Everyone is so great about praying for me and sending me words of encouragement. Thank you all for that, it really does help.

February 5, 2008

I really thought that I would be getting a call this week to tell me I am out of PGN and I would be bringing Maya home in 6-8 weeks. As of today, I was in PGN for 2 months (the typical time to be in before getting approval). Well I got a call today from my caseworker and found out that I am out of PGN but not because I am approved it is because I have received another "kickout." The reason for the kickout is invalid and despite my attorney showing PGN that what they needed was in fact there, they would not take my file back until I have been registered with the new Central Authority. Well I am registered but the Central authority is not giving out "Proof of Registration" yet so I can not be resubmitted yet. This is all part of the political mess going on in Guatemala right. Best case scenario is that they will pass out "proof of registration" in the next 2 weeks and then I can be resubmitted to PGN. Unfortunately, it will most likely take another 8 weeks or so there and then once approved it will be 6-8 weeks from there. This is just devastating! I felt so close to being able to have her home by April 1st and now it looks like it will be more like the end of May or beginning of June. Please pray for me. I am tired of being patient. I am frustrated, hurt, angry, sad, and exhausted over all of this. It is ridiculous that innocent children whose biological parents have done their best to make a good adoption plan for these children and the adoptive parents who want to give these children a home are the victims of political nonsense. Please don't get me wrong, I KNOW God is in control and I know it will all work out in His perfect timing but I am still hurting. Please pray that Maya will be home with me as soon as possible. Maya was 9 months old yesterday.
Happy Birthday Maya! I love you and my heart is breaking not having you with me and knowing that I have missed your first Chirstmas, your first New Years, and soon your first Valentine's Day, your first Easter, and most likely your first Birthday not to mention all your life "first that happen in the first year. I can only pray that you know how much I love you and pray that you are home with me as soon as possible. Love, Mommy.

February 3, 2008

This is her January picture from her doctor visit. At 8 months she is 20 pounds.

February 3, 2008

Not much to report today but since it had been awhile I thought I better write something. I am still in PGN and hope to be out any day now. Actually, I had really thought I would be out last week but I didn't any any phone call to tell me that happened. Tuesday will be the 2 month mark since I was resubmitted to PGN and a lot of others that were resubmitted at that same time are getting out now. So please pray that we get notified that we are approved and OUT of PGN this week. I am praying that I now by Tuesday. Once we are out it will be 6-8 weeks to bring Maya home. 

Maya I miss you so much. I told grandma the other day that I want to jump up and down ad yell and scream that I want you home. Of course, this will not work but that is what I feel like doing. You turn 9 months old tomorrow and I pray you are home before you are 11 months old. I love you and think of you constantly. I pray you can feel my love even though we are so far apart. I Love You!