August 18, 2006

I don't really know what to say or how to say it but I wanted to let each of you know that I had to make a really difficult this week. I will not be accepting the referral of the little girl I recently told you about. This means she will not be my daughter. While I really wanted this to work, God seems to have another plan. I never expected to receive a referral this fast and I do not have the money to pay all the various fees that would have been due. I really hoped and prayed that money would just appear from somewhere but it did not. I didn't feel that I could accept the referral when there is still so much money I need and I do not know how I can get it. I have several things "in the works" to raise money but it will still take a lot more. Please pray for me as my heart is truly broken at this moment. Last week at this time, I thought my dream was really coming true and 7 days later I am faced with another period of waiting. I do not understand Gods plan and at this time my "human self" wonders if He really has a plan. But in my Mind, Body, and Soul, I know He does and it is even better than I can imagine. Please continue to pray for my finances, my heart, and this little girl that will be joining another family.