December 29, 2007

It is so hard to believe that I have been home for two weeks now. In many ways it feels like it has been AT LEAST a month. I miss Maya so much. I miss her smile and her giggle and feeding her her bottles and tickling her and dressing her in cute little clothes. Believe it or not I actually even miss changing diapers and waking up in the middle of the night to feed her. I have been doing OK and managed to make it through Christmas but for some reason last night was a the hardest night I have had since I have been home. It may just be because I finally had a moment to slow done or it could be because it was 2 weeks ago yesterday that she went back to her foster mother or it could have been that I finally got the Medical update from her December 3rd doctor visit. This was not new information as I was told it all verbally at the visit but still it was "news" I got via email yesterday. But I guess the bottom line is that I am her mommy and I miss her so much right now.
I did get to have some fun this morning as my friend Michele and I went to Babies R Us and I registered for all kinds of things for her. I LOVE her Bedding/Room decor! It is called Sugar Plum and it has LOTS of purple and pinks and butterfly's! It is beautiful. Next things on the "to do" list is to get the room done. I think I am going to doing some painting (of walls and furniture) and I am also getting new carpet put in the room. I can't wait to see everything come together. Thank you Michele for going with me and helping me know what all I needed to register for.
The most common question I get is "When do you get to bring Maya home?" The answer is still "I don't know" but I am making my best guess as the end of February or March. I am STILL in PGN but hope to get out soon. Once I get out of PGN, it will be 6-8 weeks later that I will travel to pick her up. In that 6-8 weeks the US Embassy is taking care of their paperwork, getting her a new birth certificate with my last name on it, doing the 2nd DNA test and setting the Embassy appt date. So as soon as I am out of PGN the 6-8 week countdown will start!
I think that is all for now. I hope you all have a wonderful New Years Eve and a blessed New Year.
Maya, mommy loves you so much! I wish so badly that I could be holding you right now but I know you will be home in God's perfect timing! May God continue to keep you healthy and happy. May we both be comforted in the last weeks as we wait to be united together as a FOREVER family! I love you!!!!